I hadn't noticed Ren was following calmly behind. Entering I reached under the bed grabbing my duffel bag and went to the closet and drawers pulling out handfuls of clothes and shoving them into the green old ragged duffel bag. If I'm going to be thrown out then I might as well pack.
"What do you think your doing angel." Ren mumbles. I look up finally realizing he is standing in the glass door frame. His head bent down looking at his feet his hand messaging his neck. He was still shirtless his body covered in sweat.
"What does it look like I'm doing." I retort going back to pushing in a dress.
"I can see what you're doing, what I'm asking is why you're doing it?" He walked over placing his hand on top of mine that where still inside the bag trying to make room for more. I look up his eyes gleaming deep into mine.
"You accepted there offer right, so I'm making room for your new wife." I say trying not to cry, wishing he would let go, I try to pull my hands free but he tightens on top of my hands as he wraps his whole body behind me his other arm reaching down around my waist. Pulling me close. I could feel the heat from his chest on my back his body was shaking. I became stiff was he even madder than before? Part of me was afraid to look up, my wrist was hurting, and I felt like he was squeezing the air out of me.
"Ren, you're hurting me." I whisper. He doesn't budge though. His breath almost sounded heavy in my ear.
"Please forgive me my love." He whispered passionately and beggingly in my ear. At that moment, I thought my heart would break. I had to know what he was sorry about he never apologizes for anything so why did he now and for what reason.
"I didn't mean to hurt you Anna, if you hate me now and want to leave I won't stop you, but you have to know I refused to the very end I won't take another as long as there is hope for us." His grip loosened as he backed away walking over to his window.
That's it he's not even going to ask me to stay. I stand there dumb founded. Stumbling for words. "You're an ass." I quickly cover my mouth shocked at my own sudden words.
"Thanks love, it's nice to know what you truly think of me." He says glancing my way.
"Damnit Ren that's not what I mean, Damnit I don't know what I mean." I flop myself back onto the bed ready to rip out my own hair.
"For someone who wants to write you really aren't every good with words are you." He looks over at me one eye brow arched up in question and a smirk on his face.
"Am I really that untrustworthy Ren?" I sigh bowing my head down into my hands. Then realize that I might not want to know. "Err, wait I don't want to know forget I ask." I stumble to say shacking my hands as Ren was about to speak. I hear him chuckle his voice low and husky. He had gotten up from against the wall and joined me on the bed his right arm stretched out behind me.
"Anna tell me why you lied for him why didn't you just say he grabbed you suddenly, why didn't you trust me?" He questions were shocking.
"Of course, I trust you." I say exasperated. "If I didn't do you think I would work so hard to stay with you." My eyes where meeting his. "I didn't want to cause a problem all the chiefs where here and I didn't want you too…." I trailed off.
"Too what Anna." He urged me to continue.
"I didn't want you to become mad and kill someone over me, especially when it was a mistake that I'm sure he realized after." I lowered my eyes into my lap. I felt like a despicable person now how could I think of my husband so horribly even if he's a mob boss. I suddenly heard him laugh.
"Well you're not wrong. I defiantly would have killed him knowing he purposefully embraced you." I looked at him horrified which he didn't miss. "I wouldn't have done it in front of you or let you know about it." He added as if that made it any better.
"But he was just mistaken, it was an accident." I tried to argue.
"Why are you still defending him, what makes you think it wasn't intentional."
"Because before he grabbed me he looked as if he had seen a ghost when he called out another woman's name."
"What name?" I watch Ren sigh as he wraps his arm that was behind me around my hips to pull me close and lean my head on his chest.
"He called my Jilly I think it was, no I'm sure it was, he said "Jilly Wait," panicked and grabbed me." I explain nuzzling against Ren's bare chest.
"All right I get it I won't take further action for now but Anna I can't say I trust the man. I talked to him afterwards and what he was saying makes it seem that in some way he's interested in you and I don't know why or in what way so be careful if you see him please." I could hear the plea in his voice. I nodded in his chest.
"So, where does that leave us you practically told me to leave just now."
"I did not!" Ren pushed me back holding my arms looking at me as it I had just kneed him in his manhood. I almost wanted to roll over laughing at his expression.
"Well you defiantly didn't try to stop me." I said stubbornly. "You have any idea how that felt?"
"Probably about the same as I felt when you said you were packing to leave my dear." He murmured as he pulled me back against him, his hand tracing up and down my spine. Laying me back cross the bed his body pressed against mine his lips exploring the crevasses of my face and neck while his hands crawled up and down the side of my bare stomach. The sound of my bag hitting the floor echoes in the room. I didn't care as my own hands eagerly wanted to explore this man on me wanted to erase all the pain and distrust. I had never experienced it before but people say makeup sex is the best. I guess they were right.