Sometimes he wondered
Sometimes he asked himself.
Would he ever find love?The constant disappointment with his love life?Was it normal?
Maybe.
Maybe.
Maybe.
Marcus twirled the whiskey glass in his hand and stared into the amber liquid.
Why was he feeling this way? Why did he fall in love with someone who would never be his?
Was the loneliness all these years finally getting to him? Was that why he was so broken?
It's not like those fairytales books where the girl finally falls in love with her betrothed after the marriage and that was the worst part.
Meredith.
He didn't know when it had started or how he had fallen in love with her but that was the most beautiful thing about love right? It just happens.
He couldn't forget the day she had told him she would never love him.
Did it hurt him like he had been thrown into a pit of fire? Yes but he had pretended he wasn't hurt when all he wanted to do was scream.
Scream about how unfair life was. Unfair that everyone finds their happy ending except him. Unfair that he had to spend the rest of his life with someone who will never be his.
It's all unfair.
He felt so empty right now….unless you measure the rate of his heart which seems to be only beating for her.
He had given up. No he didn't give up. Seeing the tears in her eyes, he had given her what she needed. What she had ever wanted.
No amount of words could describe the pain he had got in his soul as he watched her cry in his arms.
She had appeared so strong when she was in front of him, convincing him it wasn't his fault but the moment he had appeared she had broken down.
That's how love was. It doesn't make you appear strong when all you want to do is cry. No-it makes you lay down all your flaws because you know you have someone to lean on.
"Marcus." He heard his name from that lovely mouth. The mouth he had wanted to kiss so badly for days.
"Marcus." She called him again and he stiffened. He tried his best to stop his heart from crushing in his chest.
He turned around to look at her as she strolled towards him. She forced out a smile at him and like a complete fool he found himself staring at her.
His body told him that she wanted him. His heart told him that they have a chance. But his brain, however, jolted them back into the reality they were in now.
She was only marrying him because that's her duty as the next Queen of the city of Arkaans. But love? It was never for him and why should it be? What amazing thing has he done to deserve to have the sort of love she had with that man?
He had seen their love story and it was fucking beautiful. He didn't want to take that away from her.
"Kate told me I will find you here." She said as she finally reached him.
Marcus didn't reply, he just stared at her and he saw her fidgeting with her fingers.
"Mind if I join you? The view is beautiful right?!" She exclaimed, feigning excitement. But Marcus knew better. He could hear the harsh sound of her heartbeat.
She was nervous, he could tell.
Without waiting for his reply, Meredith sat beside him.
None of them said anything, letting the silence bath them. Marcus took a sip of his whiskey waiting patiently for her to speak first.
He knew what she wanted to ask. Why? Why? He didn't know. He just wasn't thinking at that time. He did what he thought would be best for her.
Gave her what she wanted.
Love makes you foolish and do reckless things. This was one of them. Marcus knew Katrina and Timothe would ask questions. Suspicions will rise but as long as she was happy he didn't care.
No one would dare question him. He was, after all, the one and only living royal vampire of the city of Arkaans.
"Why—-" She started but trailed off. She looked up at the stars for a while and Marcus found himself staring at her.
"Why did you call Atlas here, Marcus?" She continued turning around to look at him. Her gaze bore into his and for a while he imagined those beautiful hazel eyes shining with love-love for him. But he knew better.
"You needed him and I brought him to you." He replied bluntly, averting his gaze away from her.
"But-" Meredith started but Marcus shook his head interrupting her.
'I would love you for an eternity," He murmured, glancing at her, watching her stare at him like it was
going to make things better when they both knew they were done.
"I would die for you. Kill for you. I would bleed for
you."
"Marcus please-" she whispered as a tear ran
down her cheek.
Marcus hated the tears in her eyes. He wanted to see her beautiful smile not some fucking tears in her eye.
He sighed.
His love for her was greater. But he couldn't let her see him crumble or she would feel bad. So he continued to stare at her, savoring this beautiful moment.
And then he experienced pain so searing, so horrible that he wondered if he would survive it as he said the words that will damn them forever.
"Go to him."
"But-" Her eyes closed.
"I know Meredith. That's why I have planned everything."
Her face arched into confusion.
"What?"
"From today, he will be your bodyguard. Because of the incident at the council meeting, the prince has appointed Atlas, Elvin's cousin and next in line of the leader Royal knights to be the princess's bodyguard."
Meredith's eyes widened in shock.
"Marcus—you…."
Marcus gave her a sad smile, "It's okay though, it's going to be okay."
"How?" Meredith questioned
Marcus squeezed his eyes shut.
"Because I have no other choice. And neither do you."
"I care for you- Meredith stated.
"No." Humiliated, Marcus returned his stare into his drink and found his voice cracking.
"You love him."
Author's Note: Hi guys…hope you're all good. Sorry for ghosting everyone but life is a bit messy now. My mental health is really deteriorating but I have seen the messages and I don't want to disappoint you guys. So from now I will try to update as much as I can. Thank you for always being there for me. Love,
Chichii.