Shen Yunya’s heart suddenly constricted and she clenched her fists upon hearing such a question. However, her body was very relaxed. She only had a guilty look on her face. She lowered her eyes and said, “I’m sorry, Big Brother Jin. I did not take good care of Elder Sister and did not pick the 1000-year Spiritual King Grass to protect Elder Sister’s heart, making you unable to see her one last time.”
Xi Jin looked at her. She appeared so sorrowful and blamed herself. He wanted to speak Xi Lin’s words and question her. But when he thought of what Xi Lin had said, he choked it all back down.
You don’t love enough and are unworthy of love!
Those words suddenly woke him up. He really could not discuss everything with Ya’er, especially now that Lin’er suspected her. Besides, what was the point of questioning her at this time? Since there were doubts, he should thoroughly investigate them on his own.
He should investigate rather than listening to what other people said.
“Big Brother Jin?” Shen Yunya found that he did not look quite right. Her heart could not help thumping a little, giving rise to a bad feeling.
Xi Jin looked up and smiled mildly as he said, “It’s all right. It’s the anniversary of Dai’er’s death today, isn’t it? I came to take a look. I miss her.”
“The anniversary of Elder Sister’s death is tomorrow.” Shen Yunya was on guard. It was only the eighth day of the month today. Big Brother Jin liked Shen Qingdai so much. How could he remember the wrong date for the anniversary of her death?
Xi Jin thought for a moment and smiled apologetically, saying, “It has been so busy with the wedding these past few days. I’m feeling a little nervous. Instead, I remembered the wrong day. So, it is actually the eighth day of the month today.”
Shen Yunya looked at Xi Jin’s gentle smile. The bad feeling in her heart felt increasingly worse. Although he had gradually started to smile, he did not smile as much today. And his smile made her very uneasy.
“Tomorrow is the anniversary of Elder Sister’s death. Big Brother Jin, let us go pay our respects to Elder Sister together.”
Xi Jin shook his head lightly and said, “I’ll go on my own tomorrow.” He went to pay his respects with her last year. He wanted to be alone this year.
“Okay.” Shen Yunya lowered her gaze. Anyway, it was not Shen Qingdai who was buried in that grave. He could go as many times as he liked. She did not care.
The two of them were silent for a while. One stood next to the swing while the other sat on it. The courtyard was full of peony flowers, and a light breeze brushed past. With the two of them sitting in silence, there was quite a sense of peace.
“Ya’er, April 12th is a special day. Let us postpone,” he said.
Listening to the words Xi Jin was saying, Shen Yunya’s face suddenly changed. However, her expression immediately recovered. She asked in a docile and gentle manner, “Is it because of Elder Sister?”
Xi Jin did not speak, which could be taken as him tacitly agreeing. After these three years of numbing himself and letting himself live in a state of oblivion, he seemed to sober up a bit at this time.
Shen Yunya looked down at Xi Jin as he gazed at the abundant, gorgeous peony flowers in a trance. He appeared to have tacitly agreed. She clenched her fists and felt her hatred deepen in her heart, but her face was gentle as she said, “Okay.”
Xi Jin was startled for a moment and looked at her, baffled. He had not expected her to answer so plainly.
Shen Yunya smiled and spoke tenderly and considerately, saying, “Let me announce the postponement. I will ask Master to send out an urgent letter tomorrow and rush back to the Shang Institution the day after that. Although there will still be some harsh words, this is the best way to proceed at the moment.”
“Ya’er.” Looking at how gentle and considerate she was in thinking of him, Xi Jin felt shame in his heart.
If he were to be the one to announce the postponement, as the prince, he would definitely lose the faith of the people. It would damage his reputation. But if Ya’er were to say so, then this contradiction would be pointed at her and toward the Shen Family. Other than him being pitied and sympathized with, there was no loss.
“Ya’er does not ask for anything. I only ask for Big Brother Jin’s wellbeing. If Big Brother Jin does not want to get married, Ya’er will also understand,” she said.