Perhaps she did not know this, but I had to muster all my will to not go after her.
When I saw her at twilight to fetch her for dinner, her rosy cheeks and red lips, I felt a hint of selfishness again.
When I kissed her, I felt my heart really trembling for a lady. I noticed I had been holding myself back plenty of times. Perhaps it was the numerous dangers we had gone through together that finally caused me to make up my mind to not indulge myself. Yet the thought of holding myself back had backfired, which resulted in me kissing her passionately.
I knew I could not bring her down to where I was. I had been wasting my time, searching for revenge. From certain perspectives, I could be considered a degenerate. That was why I could not get her involved. If I were unable to do good by her and instead brought her into danger, then how could we even be in a relationship?
Or perhaps, deep inside of me, I had become fearful of losing someone dear to me again.
When I saw her again on the ship, she looked annoyed and seemed like she had things to say. I know how she felt. Yet, we were now in this situation and unable to know what would happen. I needed to protect her.
That was why I walked toward her.
I caught a glimpse of sadness in her eyes, but before I could react, I was holding her in my arms. I wonder if she knew that if she looked at me like that a few more times, I would give up and selfishly date her. I would not care at all how things would turn out.
I knew she was a kind girl, and under such circumstances, I needed her help. As such, I asked her to help me save Wu Miao. Sure enough, she agreed and even became very friendly with Wu Miao. I knew she was doing this because she was kind and not because she wanted to impress me. After all, when we re-entered Wu Miaos room, she did not look at me anymore.
I felt bitter and somewhat glad about this, but now was not the time to think about such things.
I felt a little dizzy when I stepped into Wu Miaos room, but I ignored it.
However, who would have known that this timeline would end so quickly. Sensing that something was wrong, I immediately warned Wu Miao again. She seemed somewhat puzzled about this and even tried to help me. Even though I was still worried and reluctant, I knew now that at least she knew what to do. I put on a smile with great effort then raised my face to look at the woman I love. Through my fuzzy vision, I saw that she had fainted. I tried to stand up but ended up falling down. I only managed to grab onto her hand.
Tan Jiao, Ive told you. No matter how things turn out, no matter how the past has changed, I will remember you.
Even if I am no longer at where I used to be.
However, when I woke up, I was still at that repair shop. I woke up peacefully and looked at the gradually rising sun. A moment later, my heart was flooded by the pains of sorrows once more.
History had not changed. I was still here, still staying somewhere far away from home.
Like a madman, I took my phone out and looked up information about my mother and sister.
Wu Miao went missing a year ago. Now the date had changed, and the events that occurred had changed. The police were unable to find her even now. As for my mother, nothing had changed, and she drowned a month after.
I held onto the phone and sat in bed for a long time as an intense thought burnt in my heart, She went missing, which means that she might not have died. Wu Miao might still be alive!