Xia Pu was somewhat surprised; she hadn’t expected him to care about her so much.
"Actually, there’s no need, I’m really fine," Xia Pu said to him.
Pei Yuanze thought for a moment and said, "I’ve said it before, during this time, I will take good care of you. Today, such a big thing happened to you, you must be very scared inside."
Xia Pu’s eyes flickered.
In fact, she wasn’t afraid.
If it had been before, maybe she would have been, but she was already a person nearing death, she wasn’t afraid of anything anymore.
"Yuanze, do you hate me?" Xia Pu suddenly asked him.
Pei Yuanze was taken aback, seemingly not understanding why she would ask such a question.
Xia Pu said indifferently, "Hate me for insisting on marrying you, hate me for making things difficult for you?"
"Do you hate me, then?" Pei Yuanze countered, "Hate me because I can’t give you everything you want, hate me for letting you down?"
Xia Pu shook her head, "No hate, it was my own choice."
"Neither do I hate," he expressed, "I only hate why we had to get to this point in the first place." If he hadn’t compromised, maybe the current situation wouldn’t exist.
Xia Pu averted her sight, saying uncomfortably, "Me too... I shouldn’t have let us get to this point either..."
"Xia Pu, you’re a very good girl, I’ve always known that," Pei Yuanze spoke in a low voice, "In any case, I’m sorry. I’m not worthy of anyone’s affection because I don’t have a heart..."
Pei Yuanze always said he didn’t have a heart, but Xia Pu knew that he did; it’s just that he didn’t even know what his heart was like himself.
He rejected all warmth and other people’s efforts, only living in a world without any ties could he be at ease and free. As soon as someone tried to enter his life, he would run away, or drive the other person away.
Only alone, only by maintaining a distance from everyone, did he feel safe.
However, in this lifetime, there was one exception... and that was Shao Yingying.
Xia Pu was really curious about how she managed to enter his world.
"Yuanze, do you still love Miss Shao?" Xia Pu suddenly asked him.
Pei Yuanze was taken aback...
"I don’t mean anything by it, just curious. If you really love her, I will give you my blessing."
Pei Yuanze’s dark eyes flickered as he said, "It’s unclear to me too, between her and me."
"Why?" Xia Pu didn’t understand, "I thought you loved her. Don’t you love her?"
"I think we shouldn’t talk about this." Pei Yuanze didn’t answer, he stood up and touched her forehead, finding that the temperature had indeed dropped significantly.
"Get some good rest, I won’t disturb you anymore," he said and then he left.
Xia Pu’s eyes dimmed, she had asked something she shouldn’t have again.
Every time she couldn’t help herself, why did she always have to probe into his heart...
He never wanted to let others know his inner thoughts; why couldn’t she control herself?
Maybe Shao Yingying never disturbed his inner world; that’s why he was so at ease with her...
And she, after all, was no different from an ordinary woman, never understanding how to interact with someone like him.
Pei Yuanze returned to his study but had no inclination to do anything.
The question from Xia Pu kept circling in his mind.
He didn’t know whether he loved Shao Yingying or not, but he did like her.
In his youngest days, Shao Yingying had entered his world. She was very quiet and never disturbed him, which made him feel comfortable.
And at that time, he hadn’t yet become increasingly heartless.