But I’ve loved him for so long that I can’t possibly not know what he’s thinking. It’s because I understand that I realize how important that past relationship was to him. It was unique, regardless of the past or the future..."
Mo Jun was startled, "So what do you mean?"
"If he lets go, it will be gone forever."
What shocked Xiaopu was this point—she never expected that Pei Yuanze would be willing to let go for her.
But he doesn’t love her, and he managed to let go...
He’s really trying hard to make up to her.
But this way of making up makes her feel very bitter because it’s a helpless compromise.
Xiaopu didn’t want him to do this because of her.
Yet he did it anyway.
"Xiaoyun, what should I do?" Xiaopu asked Mo Jun confusedly, "He’s let go, but I don’t know what to do."
Mo Jun was taken aback and quickly asked with concern, "Why is that?"
"Because he’s let go, I don’t want to let him down even more. But he doesn’t love me..."
Mo Jun sighed in relief, so this was what she was concerned about.
Mo Jun held her shoulders and said, "Xiaopu, although my words may be harsh, you really shouldn’t worry about him now.
Letting go was his own choice, you didn’t force him, so it has nothing to do with you. The most important thing now is your choice, what you want to do is what’s crucial.
If you want to leave him, then leave him. If you want to stay with him, then don’t think about whether he loves you or not, just stay with him. As long as you’re happy, just do it."
Xiaopu laughed at the straightforward and blunt logic.
"Can I really be that selfish?" she asked.
Mo Jun smiled and nodded, "Of course! As long as you’re happy, that’s what counts, as long as you haven’t done anything heinous."
Seeing her so optimistic and direct, Xiaopu was moved.
She tentatively asked her, "If you encountered such a situation, what would you do?"
Mo Jun suddenly thought of her past life...
She smiled and said, "If my suffering surpassed my happiness with him, I would leave. If I still felt joy and hope, I would stay."
"Even if your husband doesn’t love you?"
"If he doesn’t love me, I would try everything to make him love me! If he truly didn’t love me and loved someone else, I would let him go!"
"But what if you had only a little time left to live?" Xiaopu asked again.
Mo Jun’s eyes flickered slightly, "If I were dying, it would all depend on his attitude. If he wants to give up, I would give up. If he doesn’t want to give up, I would persevere. Unless I really wanted to give up myself, I wouldn’t give up proactively."
"Why not give up proactively?" Xiaopu asked in confusion.
Mo Jun murmured, "Maybe it’s simply because I feel that companionship is hard to come by. Of course, it also depends on whether it’s worth it."
Xiaopu held Mo Jun’s hand, "I understand what you mean. Don’t worry, I will seriously think about this. You’re right, as long as I’m happy, why think so much. After all, as long as the choice is worth it, that’s what matters."
"Mm, that’s how you should think!" Mo Jun nodded happily, and then eagerly asked, "So what’s the choice you want to make now?"
Xiaopu didn’t answer directly and deliberately joked, "I’m dying and I’m pregnant; tell me, can a woman like me still find happiness again?"