"Who gives you the right to leave without my permission?" Zhu Junze said as he stared intensely at Yunyu’s eyes. He took one step forward, and when Yunyu was about to take a step back, Zhu Junze circled his hand around Yunyu’s waist and pulled Yunyu into his embrace.
"Look at me in the eyes, Li Yunyu," Zhu Junze instructed. The moment their eyes met again, Yunyu was dazed by the deep emotion that Junze had in his eyes.
No matter how many times he stared at those eyes, it would still drown Yunyu in both guilt and relief.
He was relieved that Junze still remembered him, but he felt guilty for ruining Junze’s life. He really thought that Junze would forget him and move on since he was still pretty young when Yunyu died.
"Do you still remember me clearly, Junze?"
"How can I not remember the man who lives in my heart? That man has a permanent resident there. No matter how many times I tried to kick him out of my heart and give space to someone else, he just wouldn’t leave."
"Can’t you see my company’s name? It’s derived from my beloved’s small name. He said that I was the only one who called him Yun’er...."
[Well, that one is true. Junze is the only one who called me Yun’er.]
Zhu Junze wanted to say many things to Bai Yunyu, whom he married once in that world.
But a series of unfortunate events separated them. Yunyu’s death put a big hole in his heart, a hole that nothing could close even until his death.
Zhu Junze wanted to scold Yunyu for being so rash. Because he was so impulsive to face Ronghui, whose mind had been disturbed and ended up getting shot twice in his stomach.
He also wanted to embrace Yunyu forever. Only with this man that his heart could feel complete once more.
Zhu Junze felt lost in words in the end. He was tongue-tied because this overwhelming feeling in his heart wasn’t describable by words.
He hugged Yunyu tightly and kissed the lips he had been longing for so long.
"Ze’er..." Yunyu accepted the kiss as he mumbled his small name for Zhou Junze in the second world. Their lips smacked on each other, and the sound of the smooch was loud enough to fill this wide space.
"Mmh... ah... Ze’er..." Yunyu knew what Zhu Junze wanted to do. Like Zhou Junze and Li Yunyu, they had unfinished business in the past.
Because Yunyu died on their first night together, a night that should be their best night turned disastrous in an instant. Zhu Junze thought it was so unfair that he had to be separated from Yunyu, especially when he would consummate with Yunyu.
Yunyu wasn’t surprised when Zhu Junze’s hand on his waist slowly crawled down and slipped inside Yunyu’s jeans. He started fondling Yunyu’s cute and perky butt, solidifying his intention.
Yunyu panicked and tried to separate himself from Junze.
"Ze’er, don’t...."
"Why not? We were married in that world, Yunyu. And we were only separated by death. You are still my wife in the end...."
"We were married, but I’m not yours in this world. P—Please, I have someone else I love in this world."
Zhu Junze finally stopped. He stared at Yunyu silently, "You have someone else? Ronghui?"
"Not him too...." Yunyu sighed. He didn’t know whether this was the real Zhou Junze or just a man without Junze’s memory but had many dreams between them, just like Ronghui.
"Then who?"
...
"Before I answer that, would you mind pulling your hand first? You’re still fondling my ass right now."
"Your next answer determines whether I will pull out or poke this—" Junze said as he gently nudged Yunyu’s chrysanthemum with his middle finger.
Bai Yunyu’s cheeks reddened. Honestly, if this was one of the transmigration worlds, he would just let Junze have his way.
But he promised himself not to do anything sexual nor fall in love with someone other than Han Ye. No matter how bad it was.
"Ze’er, my heart in this world is already reserved for one person. I cannot betray him," Yunyu said.
[Though... I’m pretty sure Han Ye Gege wouldn’t even care if I die in a volcano.]
Zhu Junze inhaled deeply and pulled his hand from Yunyu’s jeans. He wanted to plunder, keep and lock Yunyu by his side, so nobody would be able to take him.
But at the same time, he knew that wouldn’t end well. He also didn’t want to hurt Yunyu at all. Because this man was his entire world.
"Who is he?"
"... Han Ye."
"The Movie Emperor Han Ye?"
Yunyu nodded weakly. He was waiting for Zhu Junze to ridicule him because of his ridiculousness. But on the contrary, Zhu Junze sighed and shook his head.
"Yunyu, you know it’s just impossible, right?"
"What do you mean by that?" Yunyu asked.
"Because that Han Ye doesn’t have a heart at all," Junze replied. "I have been in this industry for two years, and I will never contract that man. He is vile, coldhearted, and malicious. Though there haven’t been any cases against him, but from one look, I already see how vile he is...."
"Yun’er, why are you wasting your time with someone like that when you have me? I might not remember anything in that world, but I have a constant dream about you."
"Every time I fell asleep, the dream repeated itself over and over like a movie until I remember every single line that you speak. I thought it was just my wild fantasy, but I ended up falling in love deeper to this unknown man I called Yun’er."
"I even make an entertainment agency and studio based on your name. Because you’re the only one who could fill this empty heart, Yunyu."
"When our eyes met for the first time, I already knew that it’s you who I’ve been searching for. You are the same Li Yunyu in my dream, my Yun’er."
"And I will never let go."