"When our eyes met for the first time, I already knew that it’s you who I’ve been searching for. You are the same Li Yunyu in my dream, my Yun’er."
"And I will never let go."
...
"Yun’er?"
"Ze’er... why do you love me this much? How come you still remember me and even make me as your company’s name? Do you not realize how blindly in love you sound right now?" Yunyu asked.
"Do you think I can help it?" Junze retorted. He felt hurt that Yunyu didn’t seem to like the fact that Junze had been in love with him even before they met in this world physically.
"Yun’er, your image fills my life in this world, even since I was a kid. Your image is like a full moon on a dark night. You showered me with your gentle light, and I instinctively follow the path leading to you every single day."
"Yun’er, I cannot help but love you...." Junze said.
This was all he could do. He felt a bit relieved after he confessed to Yunyu in this world.
But Yunyu only sighed full of pity, "Ze’er, my case is also like you. I have been in love with someone in this world, and I cannot help it. I am a slave to my own heart."
"Don’t you realize how stupid it is to fall in love and insist on staying even after constant abuse and neglect?" Yunyu asked, and Junze was silenced immediately.
He wasn’t sure how to respond because what Yunyu said was correct. It was stupid for him to love Li Yunyu for so long, but it was inevitable because his heart said so.
Meanwhile, Bai Yunyu was thinking about the other two male leads he had met so far. Zhu Junze, Mu Ronghui, Huang Jinren all got the same feeling attached to him.
Junze and Ronghui knew what happened through an endless dream, while Huang Jinren solely used his instinct. Their feelings stayed, but Yunyu couldn’t reciprocate to any of them, unfortunately.
"How about our relationship and marriage in that world?" Zhu Junze asked. "Were you also faking it?"
"No, I didn’t fake my attraction to you, Junze," Yunyu shook his head. "But this is a different world, and I am destined to serve someone. He is an ungrateful prick, but my heart said to serve him no matter what."
...
Zhu Junze realized that he couldn’t be with Yunyu. Because Yunyu’s heart wasn’t his in this world.
He was heartbroken. Only a heartless idiot wouldn’t be heartbroken when your loved one rejected you.
Of course, Junze also had that urge to just kidnap Yunyu and tie him right now. But that was only stuff in his head. He remembered that world in his dream.
The world was so vivid, and the love triangle between him, Ronghui, and Yunyu were so real as well.
He knew that he was the winner in that world because he was the one who married Yunyu in the end.
He already told himself that he wouldn’t let Ronghui touch Yunyu at all, even though he knew that Ronghui was an ever-growing threat in his life. And he also knew that Yunyu hadn’t let go of Ronghui at all. Deep down, Yunyu loved both him and Ronghui.
In the end, his bitter love war ended up getting Yunyu killed, and both of them regretted it so much.
Zhu Junze had always questioned himself in his heart after Yunyu’s death.
’If only I could be a bit more mature at that time and share Yunyu with Ronghui, then everything would be alright. Yunyu also loves Ronghui as much as I do, right?’
Thus, Junze already promised himself not to be immature. He wanted to dote on Yunyu but without anything behind. He just wanted Yunyu to be happy.
"As long as you stay close to me, even if we cannot be together in this world. Then I will be more than grateful, Yun’er...." Zhu Junze stated. It was difficult for him to say, but he couldn’t do much if this was what Yun’er wanted.
"Even if that means I will never be yours in this world?" Yunyu asked. "If... if you don’t want it, then I can leave. Pretend this meeting never happened, and we will return to our regular life."
"Ze’er, you’re a successful man on top of the chain right now. I don’t want that to be the torment in your life," Yunyu said. He took a step back, thinking it was best to forget about all this. He didn’t want to hurt Junze anymore.
But Zhu Junze shook his head, "That’s even worse, Yun’er. You’ve been occupying my heart since the day I was born in this world. I’m living with no direction if you’re not by my side."
"I’d rather have you close to me, and I will watch over you. I don’t want to force you to love me anymore because I don’t want a similar tragedy to happen again," Junze said, mentioning the love triangle tragedy between them. "If you want to be with that coldhearted bastard Han Ye, then I will allow you. But if that bastard dares to hurt you, then I will be the one who strikes him down."
Yunyu smiled thin. It was ironic because Han Ye had hurt him plenty of times. Yet, he never complained because he thought it was just what it was. Han Ye Gege always told him that he was worthless, so being beaten and bullied wasn’t really a problem.
Since nobody cared about his life anyway.
Now, after he jumped to various transmigration worlds and returned to his world, there were so many men who suddenly wanted to protect him, to love him tenderly.
But no matter how many men would come in the future, his heart still harboured to that coldhearted man, Han Ye.
[My fate is truly interwoven with tragedy.]
Yunyu took a deep breath and said, "Well, you can always help me by employing me to be one of your talents, hehe~."
"Oh, come on, I already make the contract for you to sign, if that’s what you want. There is no need to audition and stuff. I will do everything for you, Yun’er."