Chapter 219: Chapter 219: Indulgence
Anyway, Ning Yichen’s escape from the marriage had made his attitude clear, and Su Lianxi’s days were definitely not going to be easy.
Correspondingly, Su Guo’an’s days were definitely not going to be easy either… Su Zixi knew that Su Guo’an had already sold off all of his businesses in Yanzhou City, planning to make a fresh start in East Yangdong City. Now that he had offended the Ning Family, he feared that all his plans would come to naught…
Did he feel even a trace of regret? Regret for allowing Su Lianxi to bully her back then, regret for indulging Lin Shuyue and Su Lianxi in taking credit for her achievements?
But thinking of Su Guo’an’s character, Su Zixi quickly laughed to herself… Perhaps he would have regrets, but he would never feel guilty.
With that thought, she suppressed a sudden surge of melancholy and showed a smile to He Jingyao.
“Zhixi, you are too hard on yourself,” He Jingyao said gently, stroking her cheek, “You are completely entitled to indulge in your own pettiness, to indulge in your own revenge, to indulge in not always being kind. Your kindness should be extended to those who deserve it, not those who intend to hurt you. In their eyes, your forbearance will only make them think you are easy to bully.”
Su Zixi was slightly stunned.
“I guess Su Lianxi has been bullying you for more than a day or two, right?” He Jingyao said, looking at her with a hint of understanding.
Su Zixi couldn’t help but think of her childhood… how Su Lianxi would take away her favorite clothes, her favorite toys, her favorite dolls… It seemed that whatever she liked, Su Lianxi would always find a way to snatch it away.
She had thought about resisting, but Su Lianxi knew how to act charmingly, always winning Su Guo’an’s favor, and with Lin Shuyue’s secret instigation, time and again, she could only avoid confrontation with Su Lianxi.
So… That’s why Su Lianxi became more and more outrageous.
Reflecting on this, Su Zixi sighed with frustration, “That’s right, so this is also the consequence of my own actions.”
No sooner had she spoken than she suddenly felt a pain in her forehead!
“Ouch!” She looked confusedly with tearful eyes at the man whose face had suddenly turned stern.
“There you go again, why do you think this is a consequence of your own actions?”
“Because… because of my indulgence…”
“Then, was this a choice you made willingly?” He Jingyao asked, gazing deeply at her.
Confusion flickered in Su Zixi’s eyes as she murmured, “No… because I had no other choice…”
When she was just a little girl, the only person she could rely on was Su Guo’an. But if even her biological father couldn’t provide her with a sense of security, what could she do?
“Exactly, because you had no other choice, because in Su Guo’an’s heart, you, his daughter, were dispensable,” He Jingyao enunciated each word, “So, this is not your fault.”
Su Zixi shivered slightly, tears welling up in her eyes as she nodded, “Yes… it’s not my fault.”
“Now, you have my support, so you can do what you want to do, there’s no need to suppress yourself anymore,” He Jingyao urged, looking intently at her, “I’ve told you this more than once. If you’re unwilling to do so, it means you haven’t truly trusted me yet.”
Feeling somewhat defensive, Su Zixi wanted to retort, but found that she was at a loss for words.
She had to admit, what He Jingyao said was right… Her fear of causing him trouble, ultimately, stemmed from her disbelief that he would indulge her unconditionally and always stand by her side.
“I… I’ll try to change,” Su Zixi couldn’t help but say. “Then… even if I cause you trouble, you won’t get angry?”