"Yu, please believe me. I’m not a lunatic; I just like you too much. Is it really so difficult for me to not forget you right now?"
Gu Qixiao couldn’t understand why not wanting to forget his lover was such a big problem. They had been together for so long, yet they still encountered such wretched circumstances. Did Jiang Huai not realize how deep their feelings for each other were?
Ji Yu looked at his once-strong body, now unable to even climb off the bed, and felt an unbearable pain in her heart.
"Gu Qixiao, look at yourself. You’ve been tortured into such a state. Do you think I wouldn’t feel heartache for you? If you keep going , your body will only deteriorate further."
She too felt an impulsive urge to cry, perhaps because everything in front of her was too overwhelming.
"Gu Qixiao, I really can’t accept this. You’re disregarding your own life just to avoid forgetting me. If you don’t even care about your life, how can you possibly be with me?"
"You wouldn’t understand. Forgetting you is worse than death. I know you might think I’m being extreme by doing this, but these are my own choices—they have nothing to do with you." This was a decision he made himself, not something anyone else had forced upon him.
"Yu, please support me. I know you’re feeling terrible, but at this moment, no one is feeling worse than I am." Gu Qixiao was on the verge of insanity. He tried hard to sit up, but he lacked the strength. He knew how pathetic he looked, but he was willing to pay this price just to remember Ji Yu. Tʜe sourcᴇ of thɪs content ɪs NoveI(F)ire.net
Time and time again, he watched his powerless hands fall, yet he refused to give up.
The sight of him made Ji Yu’s heart ache, mixed with helplessness.
"Gu Qixiao, do you insist on making me feel heartbroken just to make yourself feel better? Look at yourself now—you can even feel pain, so why do you refuse to stop?"
They could slowly find the cure and then solve the problem all at once. But given the dire situation now, he should be taking steps to accept the reality.
"Gu Qixiao, you don’t even have the strength to sit up anymore. You’ve lost the basic ability to take care of yourself. How do you think you’re capable of loving me?"
If there was any other possibility, Ji Yu wouldn’t have let him take such risky steps either.
"Gu Qixiao, I’m begging you—forget me temporarily, even if it means we start over and get to know each other again. I know you’re tormented right now, but this is an unavoidable measure."
This was the only solution they had no choice but to follow, though he might still resist the idea in his heart.
"I don’t want to forget you. I’m begging you, please don’t make me forget you. Let this be the one thing I ever ask of you, after being together."
Gu Qixiao had never pleaded with anyone before, but for this, he seemed to have surrendered, because there was always one person living in his heart.
His gaze stirred immense pain in Ji Yu’s soul.
"Don’t look . I can see how uncomfortable you feel, but this is only the beginning."
Ji Yu, while continually trying to persuade him, was also convincing herself because she too could feel the same anguish deep inside.
"Watching you forget me hurts me just as much. However, I can endure it for now because your health is what matters most."
She was already enduring significant pain to persuade him, yet he still stubbornly refused. This made her heart feel even heavier.
"I understand everything, but I can’t accept this outcome. I know what you’re thinking inside, but everything in front of me doesn’t allow me to agree."
Gu Qixiao refused to give up the person in his heart. They had already spent so much time explaining all these feelings—starting over felt far too grueling. They had already gone through so many ups and downs when they had first met.
"I can’t guarantee that you will still love me after meeting me again. So this is my final decision—I want you to love me now in this moment, not after we’ve had to start over."
He firmly believed that a second encounter would be an entirely different situation. So at this moment, he’d rather endure the pain and grow more withered than let them be apart.
"Gu Qixiao, are you an idiot? Can’t you see this is only a temporary separation for us? I won’t give up on you ; I still remember you!"
Just like back then, when all the memories disappeared, Gu Qixiao still hadn’t forgotten her.
"Haven’t we already gone through this once? Everything that happened back then surely still lingers in your memory now. As long as neither of us gives up, there won’t be any real problems."
Precisely because he had gone through it, he knew just how painful it had been. He couldn’t accept Ji Yu forgetting him, and Ji Yu equally couldn’t accept him forgetting her.
"Yu, I’m begging you, don’t keep pushing me. My heart is already in unbearable pain. I can’t force myself to forget you, nor can I stop caring about you."
He had tried so many times but ultimately failed to erase the person in his heart.
"Please, I’m begging you, stop making me forget you. Only I understand how this feels. I’m in so much pain right now; I can’t keep talking to you."
Since communication had reached a dead end, they could only resort to drastic measures.
Ji Yu understood everything happening before her and knew very well what had to be done next.
"Gu Qixiao, you can just think of me as a cruel person. I’m sorry, but this is the only way to deal with the current situation. I know your heart aches, but only this method can save your life."
She had contemplated this result countless times but had never been able to come to terms with it.
"Even if you think of it as never having met me, or as starting over and falling in love with me again, I won’t give up. I know you’re right here beside me, and I know you’ve already tried your best."
But neither of them could escape these unbearable circumstances.