She paused before Tobanya added, "I hope the Princess forgives my offenses; from now on, I won’t be courteous to him anymore."
An Jing responded, "What is there to forgive? What you did was right; he truly was too much."
Tobanya said, "Thank you, Princess, for your understanding."
An Jing hesitated for a moment, but still spoke up, "No matter what he said to you, don’t take it to heart. It’s not worth getting upset over someone like him."
An Jing hesitated again before asking, "Today is the anniversary of your father’s death, right?"
Tobanya was silent for a long while before she quietly responded, "Mm."
Seeing that Tobanya was gazing into the distance, An Jing followed her gaze and saw that it was in the direction of Beisheng. She immediately sighed but said nothing and turned to leave.
At this moment, this person, she just wanted to be alone, and An Jing knew this.
Once An Jing had left, Tobanya continued to stand by the window, looking in the direction of Beisheng.
Four years had passed, a full four years since the massacre of the Five Clans, leaving her the only one left in her family.
Previously, she had survived on the belief in revenge; what would she survive on thereafter?
Initially, she had stood in the crowd and witnessed her father being torn apart by horses, witnessed the annihilation of the Five Clans. This was not only her agony but also her nightly nightmare.
That scene, she would never forget for as long as she lived.
The bloodshed was so severe that she wished she could have died with her family then and there.
It was not until it grew dark that Tobanya finally stepped away from the window.
She had someone prepare alcohol and dishes and place them in the pavilion in front of the courtyard where she lived. Without even putting on a coat, Tobanya just walked towards the pavilion step by step.
It was already deep into winter and the nights were piercingly cold.
However, the already chilled-to-the-bone Tobanya felt nothing and still walked into the pavilion, sitting there as the night deepened and the dew grew heavy, lifting the wine jug from the table and pouring herself drink after drink.
Drink after drink, she didn’t touch the dishes, but she kept drinking the alcohol endlessly.
It seemed to have no end.
It seemed she would not stop.
Previously, she thought about revenge, about dying together with Tao Shangran, but she had never thought about how she would live after the revenge was completed.
Now, with her great vengeance fulfilled, she was still alive but did not know where to go from here.
Fortunately, the Emperor of Xiyun let her stay in the Capital, sparing her the need to think about where to go next.
But, in the future, what should she do? Just continue to stay in the Imperial Capital, continuing to live a day-to-day existence without any support?
Rather than that, it would be better to be dead.
Being with her family would be better than living .
Thinking this way, Tobanya, extremely saddened and in pain today, wanted to drink herself to death, and thus she drank even faster, cup after cup.
She hadn’t eaten anything today, and now drinking on an empty stomach, and drinking so much, her stomach quickly began burning. She felt extremely uncomfortable, but thought she was dying and was actually pleased.
Uncharacteristically, a smile of relief appeared on her stunningly beautiful face.
Let the weather freeze her to death.
Let the alcohol kill her.
Let her go and meet her family.
Having drunk so much, the signs of intoxication were already visible on Tobanya’s face. Tobanya was naturally beautiful, with skin like porcelain, and now tinged with a drunken blush under the dim light of the lanterns, her cheeks slightly red, her cold beauty gained a captivating charm, making her breathtakingly beautiful.
"Commandery Princess."
From afar, Meng Zhuqing saw Tobanya sitting alone in the pavilion, braving the cold wind and drinking, which made him quickly walk over.