The horses neighed, Danette waved at me from inside the carriage as it moved away, I smiled waving back.
"I’m so happy for her, an heir to the Heathcliff house is good news," Mother said in amusement.
"Yes I’m happy for her," I said as a feeling overwhelmed me.
"But I’m surprised you were able to tell she is with child"
"I’m confused too, I just felt a light and a presence, touching her belly I knew what it was"
"Is this perhaps an ability of a Silver-Haired, we did not know about?"
"It could be," I said with a shrug, but for some reason, I felt like it was more than that.
I turned to Mother, she still had a smile on her lips as she watched Danette’s carriage retreat, my eyes saddened.
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The sound of my culinary jamming could be heard in the hall. I took small bites of my food, but I didn’t have much appetite, so I sighed and dropped it.
"You should eat Mistress, or you will get sick," Mint said.
I forced a smile. "I know but I just feel..." I sighed once again.
"Does it have to do with Lady Danette’s good news"
"I-I’m not unhappy for her, believe me, Mint I’m overjoyed and..." I bit my lips.
He smiled. "Could it be that you desire the same as her?".
My gaze fell to my plate. "Mother was very happy, I want her to be, I want to be happy too but" I placed my hand on my stomach. Cedric and I have not yet consummated our marriage, it was futile for me to hope for such a thing.
"If Mother finds out we haven’t consummated our marriage, imagine just how sad she will be, she has always been desperate for her grandchild, I’m sure she’s still hoping for it too, but it can’t happen"
"I understand Mistress, and I’m sure she will too when the time comes" Mint assured me.
"That is not just the case Mint, this is very important, this is securing the Hartford line, and-" my lip quivered slightly, I didn’t want to think of the worse, I shook my head.
"I just want all this to be over, I just want the war to be over so that I can see him again," I said in a whisper with sad eyes, my gaze fell to the front seat where he usually sat, I could already imagine him there, seated as he indulged himself in some printed papers before those enthralling green eyes fall on me and then he smiles, saying my name.
"Mistress, why are you crying?" Mint asked in a worried tone. Was I? I wipe my cheek and I felt the cold water, I sighed before sobbing, I miss him so much that I couldn’t bear it, he left when I was unconscious I didn’t have the chance to gaze upon him before he did, I awoke and I was alone, he was off to war and it pained me to the core and it only just made me long for him more, he must have had a reason for it and I understand.
Please come back to me, Cedric.
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The past month I didn’t sleep in my Chambers but rather his, the bed and everything around still smelt like him and the fragrance gave me comfort and closure to him, I tussled and turned on the bed, longing for him to be here with me so that I can be in his arms and feel his body with my fingers. I curled in a ball as the desire washed upon me, a desire to feel his touch and his kisses on my lips and neck, this was maddening desire, this was the brim, more than I could take, it only just increased my carving for him.
"Cedric," I said softly as I held unto the sheets tightly, shutting my eyes close, I could feel him here already, he’s behind me as he hugs him from behind, burying his face in my neck before whispering loving words to my ears and then his hand would move on my body.
I moaned at the imagination I had, it has been so, my imaginations were the only thing I could hold on to, I miss him so badly that my heart ached. I was on the verge of tears now but before I could even shed any, the darkness consumed me.
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I slowly opened my eyes and found myself in a forest, it was so beautiful with all the wondrous colors I never thought a forest would have, it seem similar to the Eternal Garden but this was way more magical and the flowers a variety of colors I never thought existed, a butterfly flew past me, a beautiful green color, I was enthralled by it because it reminded me of Cedric’s eyes, I was spelled as I followed it to wherever it leads to. It led me to an open area, the trees around in a circle form and the ground graced with green roses.
My gaze was no longer on the butterfly that led me here but on a standing figure, backing me and I would recognize that back anywhere.
"Nicklaus," I said his real name as I sauntered towards him desperately but the further I walked the further he moved away from me in my peripheral vision.
"Nicklaus" I called but he was moving away and fading and I felt a great amount of loss. And then he whirled to me and I was once again met with his enthralling eyes I missed so much.
"Yelena" his sonorous voice sounds. And then he vanished like dust.
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I gasp awake at the mention of that name, I sat up taking a harsh breath, the name he called me, why did he call me that, I do not bear that name. A knock at the door distracted me.
"C-Come in"
It barges open as a maid rushed in. "My lady" she began hastily, I was alerted.
"News from the war has arrived"
Before she could say more I was already out of bed, grabbing my robe as I rushed out of my chambers.
"A soldier came with a word, Mother is already there"
I increased my pace, rushing down the stairs and turning on the hall until I got to the mid entrance and I found Mother and a soldier.
"Mother," I said desperately.
She turned to me in tears and then I felt a hollow feeling washed upon me and fear like the deepest path of the ocean.
I shook my head.
"Sylvia," she said sobbing and then breaking into tears and then the realization struck me.
Before I knew it I was screaming in tears.