Not being able to stick with Fei Chuan was tormenting for Bei Sangyun.
Whenever she walked the school’s pathways, she thought of him and the times they walked together. When she passed the food stalls, she would be reminded of their time together. When she saw him in the cafeteria, she badly wanted to go to his side and join him.
It took a lot of effort and a forum for Bei Sangyun to restrain herself.
"I’m not sure if you’ve noticed, but I’m expressing my affection in the simplest way. But my efforts... aren’t enough. You don’t use that seat anymore, and the notes I gave you have never been opened. I don’t know if I’m doing it right or wrong.
"And now, you’re upset and angry. But I don’t know how to appease you."
Bei Sangyun spoke without pause, pouring her heart out.
Fei Chuan was stunned. He stared at Bei Sangyun dumbly.
So this whole fiasco was because he told Bei Sangyun that he was confused by her? That’s why she stopped teasing him, sticking to him, and eating together with him?
Fei Chuan did not expect that it was because of what he said. He now understood the meaning of shooting himself in the foot. If he had known it would lead to his lonely and frustrating days, he should not have said anything.
But... Bei Sangyun actually likes him that much?
She was so concerned about what he said that she changed herself and tried her best not to ’burden’ him. She takes every one of his words to heart.
Fei Chuan’s whole face turned red. His heart jumped wildly with joy as he thought back to the past three days.
So that’s why she painted his locker white and his chair like that. The notes that he thought were trash were actually for him. He never saw Bei Sangyun write notes for a lecture, so it was confusing why she suddenly did so, but it was actually for him.
Who would have thought that the always bold, blunt, and rude Bei Sangyun suddenly restrain herself for him and would make an effort to please him?
Fei Chuan was suddenly overwhelmed and couldn’t speak for a while. His heart thumping was too loud in his ears.
"...U-uh... I... see."
Bei Sangyun finally felt a lot of relief after speaking out her heart. However, she was saddened that she wasn’t able to restrain herself and ’burden’ Fei Chuan once again. She couldn’t face him and felt bad.
"..I did it again. I am sorry. As I said, I won’t do anything you don’t like. This will be the last time I will make this kind of mistake. That’s all I want to say."
Bei Sangyun hurried to leave. She had to leave before she could say something she would regret.
She stood up and was about to walk away when Fei Chuan suddenly held her arm, preventing her from leaving.
Bei Sangyun paused and looked back at him.
Fei Chuan’s face was red and hot, but he still managed to say, "...Don’t leave. I... I haven’t spoken my part yet."
Bei Sangyun blinked and did not shake off his hand. She remained in her position. Fei Chuan did not let go of his hold and started to speak with a tremble in his voice.
"....I am not burdened with your confession. I am also not upset because of what you did. I just misunderstood you. I am sorry."
Bei Sangyun blinked, a bit surprised. Was this the first time she heard him apologize?
And... he said he wasn’t angry or upset with her. Nor was he burdened!
The tension in her heart disappeared in an instant.
"I... what I meant that night is to not make you give me space and time alone. Contrary, I want you to... to..." Fei Chuan’s face turned redder and his voice turned smaller, "... to... to continue pursuing me."
An imaginary smoke seemed to come out of his head.
Bei Sangyun decided to be sincere and expressed her real feelings. So he should too, right? In this way, they won’t misunderstand each other, like he did to her.
They won’t waste time being frustrated and lonely then.
Since he already said the most embarrassing words out loud, it would be fine to speak his heart, right?
Fei Chuan held her arm tightly as he confessed. He did not dare to look at her, "I am not happy with the locker; it’s white and it stands out unlike the others. People could easily tell it’s mine. And the chair... it is also colored differently than the rest. And the note, I wasn’t thinking clearly at that time. Compared to showing your affection in the simplest way, I actually prefer you showing your affection in your own way."
Bei Sangyun had long forgotten to breathe. Her eyes sparkled with joy. But she still said, "...My affection... I am afraid you can’t handle it."
"Compared to the affection of the girls who constantly harassed me every day, I would rather face yours alone. Besides..." Fei Chuan’s gaze stared back at her with a bit of shyness but with strong conviction, "... I don’t mind you sticking to me."
Bei Sangyun swallowed hard. Her heart somersaulted and did a dance break inside her rib cage. The strong pumping was deafening her ears. Right now, Bei Sangyun wished she could grab Fei Chuan and kiss him again.
Fortunately, she had practiced restraint these past few days.
She took a deep breath, and with bright and shining eyes, she smiled sweetly, "Got it. Then from now on, I am officially pursuing you. Are you giving me your permission?"
"Does it have something to do with your ’I won’t do anything you don’t like’ thing?"
"Yes. It is very important to get permission." Bei Sangyun learned this from Maid Ye Zhai and Zhong Cheng.
Fei Chuan was a bit embarrassed. Did he really have to give her permission? It was like... he was giving her the go-signal to pursue him.
Fei Chuan turned his head away, exposing his red ears, ".... You got my permission." Then he added softly, "... Please take care of me then."
Is that the right way of giving permission? Ah, he doesn’t know.
All he knows is that his life won’t be peaceful now. But he doesn’t mind.